Image by Catherine Williams

Image by Catherine Williams

telling about that
            is not like coming out
but it is in small ways
when your friends laugh around the doubts
            and scour your life for blame

I saw their faces change
and listened to their anecdotes
which demonstrated to me
            that they’re cool

but sometimes they just say
as your fork hangs halfway to your face
            ‘he loved you
            he just made mistakes’